Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Hope

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I sit here and pray, "God, is this really happening?"

He gently reminds me, "It is, and it is okay."

He hugs me with the sun as I walk my girls across the yard. He gives me a gentle nudge and a tickle in my tummy to remind me of the life that needs me so much. He understands my cries, and He forgives me when doubt creeps in.

Our baby has Spina Bifida. An unexpected challenge, but a fact that has brought more hope and faith into our lives than we ever imagined. It's only been 6 days since we found out, but God is moving mountains and providing peace all at the same time. He is taking care of the little life in my womb, and we are whole-heartedly trusting that care. It is His plan, not ours.

We will hope, but we will celebrate and accept and love unconditionally.

We will love this child the way God loves her. She is perfect in His eyes. And, really, this is all that matters.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are truly and inspiration to everyone!!! We love you!!! Aunt Lorrie

Butterfly Mama said...

Oh Lorrie,
I will be keeping you all in our prayers. This is a beautiful photo and truly inspirational. God's will might always be a mystery to us in this life anyway. May His joy surround you and your family.

Much love,
Heidi

grandma/mom said...

Never forget, my love, you are held...
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
[Bridge]
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
We'd be held

This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This is what it means to be held.....

I love you.

Jen said...

Been praying since I heard. She'll be an awesome little sister :-)

Jennifer said...

praying every day for you Lisa :)

Mommy Brain said...

Life just doesn't make sense sometimes...praying

Terri Rivera said...

Beautiful photo. God knew exactly who to gift this special little baby to knowing He could trust you to love her as He does. Prayers of strength are with you all.

Anonymous said...

You truly are a strong inspiring woman/Mom that I am so blessed to know... You are amazing and I love you... Sherry

Jenny Zabrocki said...

Hi! My name is Jenny and I'm friends with your mom. We have a 7 year old Faye, with spina bifida that Doreen knows well - she may have mentioned her. We've been at Parkview since before she was born.

Call me or email me if you ever want to talk. Sometimes it just feels good to know someone who has done this before.

Jzabrocki@sbcglobal.net or at 708/633-4626

I'll be praying for you all!

Stephanie said...

Your post just gave me goosebumps. Thank you for your sharing your fear, your hope, and your strength with such candor. She is going to be beautiful - a perfect fit for your family.

stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

Katie at A List Maker's Life said...

I can't help buy agree with what you've said here.

"It's only been 6 days since we found out, but God is moving mountains and providing peace all at the same time. He is taking care of the little life in my womb, and we are whole-heartedly trusting that care. It is His plan, not ours."

We've known for 4 days, but it seems like forever. Yet, each night we are so amazed at the peace God gave us for that day and all that he is teaching us through the people who have offered their support and encouragement. Amazing.

So, another question. Was it immediately obvious to the doctors that Brooklyn had SB and/or did they question other diagnosis (sp?) first? How do they go about pin pointing the problem?

I hope I don't irritate you with my questions....