Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I sit here and pray, "God, is this really happening?"
He gently reminds me, "It is, and it is okay."
He hugs me with the sun as I walk my girls across the yard. He gives me a gentle nudge and a tickle in my tummy to remind me of the life that needs me so much. He understands my cries, and He forgives me when doubt creeps in.
Our baby has Spina Bifida. An unexpected challenge, but a fact that has brought more hope and faith into our lives than we ever imagined. It's only been 6 days since we found out, but God is moving mountains and providing peace all at the same time. He is taking care of the little life in my womb, and we are whole-heartedly trusting that care. It is His plan, not ours.
We will hope, but we will celebrate and accept and love unconditionally.
We will love this child the way God loves her. She is perfect in His eyes. And, really, this is all that matters.