Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Our Family Bubble

Okay, so those of you who aren't part of my family will probably gag over this post, but so what. The fact is Jeff, Emma, and I are very blessed to have such a great family. Sure, we have our disfunctional moments, but we love spending time with them and (I think) the feeling is mutual. At least it is when it comes to Emma -- that I can say with certainty. The attention and love she gets is overwhelming -- maybe even a little bit sickening.

She has absolutely no idea how fortunate she is -- she just takes all those hugs, cuddles, kisses, and adoring eyes for granted. But, really, why shouldn't she? Isn't that the way the world is supposed to be? Shouldn't we all expect to receive nothing but pure love from one another?

I believe Emma is in her own little heaven right now. A place full of comfort, security, joy, peace, and, yes, I'll say it one more time, love. A place where no one around will hurt her -- or let anyone else hurt her. And she trusts that this is the way life is -- the way God wants it to be.

I wish I could somehow put her in a bubble so that she never knows any differently. But we all know that isn't realistic, and I guess the world would say it would be "wrong" to shelter her from the evil in this world. She needs to learn hard lessons to "make it" in this world, right? A few years ago, I probably would have agreed. Sheltering your children is a HORRIBLE thing...or is it? I don't know about you, but I have absolutely no desire to put Emma out there in the "real world," where there are mean girls, selfish boys, hateful adults and others that will bring pain to her tiny heart. No, I want her here, in my arms, protected from all of that. I don't want to dry tears from a broken heart. I don't want to explain why someone would intentionally make her feel unloved. She deserves better. We all do.

Thankfully, my Emma will get to experience her heaven again, and when she does, it will be forever. As a Christian, I've always been grateful for that promise, but now, as a mom, I have more peace and happiness than I ever knew was possible knowing that this promise not only pertains to me, but my daughter.

No, I can't protect her from the sin in this world, but I can tell her all about the heaven that awaits her and the Father that will give her more hugs and kisses than she could ever imagine. My prayer is that she is willing to accept that gift when the time comes.

For now, she'll have to settle for the circle of love our family has created for her. I, for one, couldn't ask for more. Love you all!

Just the two of us
Just the two of us...

In awe of her Daddy

Group shot! (Um, Emma, I said, "Group shot!"…)

Aren't we cute?!!


Stylin' in Auntie Sha's shades

So proud of her uncle!



The reason my mom has gray hair…three

Luvin' on Papa


Dad and Emma

Is that a halo hangin' over Jeff's head, or is it me????

The prettiest blue eyes you'll ever see


Mama C-ta said...

Les -

Everything you said is so true. I remember my first week home from the hospital w/Julian, that was the hardest thing for me to deal w/was looking at this innocent baby and realizing I couldn't protect him from anything. How could anyone want to hurt him? But I know someday it'll happen and we'll have to deal w/it even if it's some kid being mean to him on the playground or something much worse when he's older. It's so hard to even think about. Personally I don't see what is wrong w/us stuffing them in bubbles :)

I love the photos. When we were younger I never noticed how much the 3 of you look alike but you can really see it now! I see a lot of Jeff's side in Emma's cousin, which by the way Emma is growing! You can tell she's getting plenty to eat and I don't mean this in a bad way. It's a good thing! Plus she's beautiful as ever. I think I'm gonna have to get a print of the two of you together for my house, it's a great shot of you two.

Mama C-ta said...

*that should say couldn't protect him from EVERYTHING, I'm sure I can protect him from some things ;)

kkoois said...

what a beautiful picture of you and emma! and such great family pics. thanks for sharing!

Adventures In Babywearing said...

What a sweet post. This is my first time here... and I agree with everything you wrote! People often tell me to "cut the cord" with my kids, but I think as a parent you just naturally want to protect them- and that is a good thing!

Also, what an awesome lesson of God's love, when you have children... I will never forget the moment I finally "got it" that God actually sacrificed & gave up his only child to die... for us. I was rocking my baby, hugging him so tight at that moment and could not imagine ever making that choice. How did He do it? Could He truly love us that much? Amazing.